Because I can

Here I am...reading more posts from Nyxie's corner..this woman is a crack up I swear. And some of these I am reading out loud to my fiance Rich. Just finished reading some of her more amusing chat sessions on one bdsm board or another...and we have a thought that sometimes she goes out of her way just to get a reaction out of people. Maybe...maybe not...I get the feeling she likes jerking on peoples chains...the fact that she is telling the truth only making the situation funnier...

So...we finish reading some of these...and they remind me of conversations I had on such boards a few years ago when I was really trying to figure out who I was sexually and what I was into. I figured it would help me going into a relationship having a base idea of what turned me on. Made sense to me and I was able to form some cursory opinions.

But the real joy of my evening tonight came with our conversation going into our first times in chat period...mine was on Yahoo playing Chess. I was only 15 at the time. We didn't get internet in the house until that year...no point to having it even then really...anyway...I didn't know much of the net as such...other than do not ever reveal personal info.

So when my partner asked A/S/L...I really didn't know any better...than to lie..I said I was 47...female...and really saggy. God I was mean. Of course..it's better than the alternative. Hi! I'm a 15 year old girl playing in a Vegas local Yahoo chess room.

...

Right.

As Rich put it..."If I were your chess partner then..'Finger licking good.'"

Remembering his face from others times where that statement was an action and not a phrase..I proceeded to giggle like an idiot and then write this.

Sex

I have been reading Nyxie's Corner. Normally I ignore my need for sex.

Sex.

I want it.

I need it right now.

That is all.

Should need to care

I should be writing.

I do not know why I am not writing. I can't even think of a good reason why I haven't done anything I need to do today.

Such as call back on some job leads. Call the school to secure attendance so I don't get my ass dropped from the program. Do the fucking history assignment like I should. I should be eating something. I should ...there is a lot I SHOULD be doing.

I just don't know why I fall into these times of just not caring. I should...I need to care. A lot of the things on that list are things that really need to be done. Am I simply lazy? Or depressed. Probably a combination of both.

Also:
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A start

Well...I guess this should be easy enough. Just write.

First couple of things that come to mind. Right now my back teeth hurt. Probably a combo of poor care on my part and my lack of seeing an orthodontist about my braces for about a year now.

I'm being stared down by a My Little Pony names Stockings who was a mail order baby pony from 1988. She's quite cute and I won her in a guessing contest on MLP arena. I spend just a little too much time there I think sometimes.

I''m fairly behind on my NaNoWriMo novel..not too badly..but badly enough that I should stick to my guns tomorrow. Right. I don't know for sure if that's gonna happen.

Night for now guys. I have a very sweet and very sexy man waiting in my bed.